Simple and Audacious

· 563 words · 3m read . written Mar 12, 2016 . re-written Nov 28, 2017

I was sitting down for my first public singing in Boston, because if I stood up people could see how bad I was trembling out of fear.

Mysteries of life are infinite and unfathomable. Not everything in your life will be full of joy. You will experience great loss and hurt in your journey.

I did.

Did you?


There came a time I wanted to end it all. The journey itself. And It wasn’t the first time. I had first thought about it in 2011. Then again in 2012.

But this time, in 2014, the want to escape from life was stronger than anything I had ever experienced.

Stronger than first love.

Stronger than first political awakening.

It was as if there was a storm inside me. Not a good storm. I did not know how to contain it. I could not. I tried surrendering. I tried fighting. I tried hiding. Nothing worked. I was screaming inside. Those screams were not made of words or sounds. Something inside me was desperately trying to find a way to be calm again. The more it tried, the more the screaming grew, the more the storm grew. I just could not contain it. Sometimes I abrubtly started crying, and felt better afterwards. But the calm wouldn’t last long. The storms always came back.

Then a mysterious voice whispered inside me. Not to me, inside me.

It came out of nowhere. But it was not sudden. It was very gentle.

“Just live a simple and audacious life, work for simple and audacious purposes, and I will take care of the rest”

With that everything became calm again. The storms inside me emptied.

The calm had something special in it. I do not know how to describe it. But that thing felt as real as sleep. As reassuring and inviting as the Himalayas.

In that moment I knew that I would now live by the simple and audacious value system.

The details of this value system emerged later, slowly and steadily.


TODO write them details down :-)


The list below has things that emerged as I listened to all the profound and silly voices in me.

Come, lets share some adventures!


– The dash Inside dash dash

Someday


– Pure Mistake

- There?
- Always :)


– Work From Home

Done for now, will do it for real in future


dash dash Can’t Run Matatu Business In Africa

Started, then stalled


– phonepop

Steady work in progress


– Flirting With The Wrong Man

Steady work in progress


– Unplanned dash

Someday


– Learning About dash

Someday


dash With The Wrong dash

Someday


– बुच्चकी के dash / Buchchki Ke dash

Started, then stalled


– Languages and dash

Someday


– राम चंद्र dash dash dash से हारे

Someday


dash Fantastic

Someday


Dash Band

Someday


– कम dash dash शादी / They dash dash Married dash dash

Someday


– बूढ़ा बूढ़ी dash dash dash dash घूमेंगे

Someday


– एम्बेसडर कार के शेहर में dash dash dash हो गया

Someday


– सुंदर dash

Someday


– She Had dash dash, But He Had dash dash

Someday


– China. dash. America.

Someday


dash dash लड़की

Someday


– ऊँची बिल्डिंग का वॉच-मैन और dash dash dash

Someday


– Culture dash dash

Someday


dash dash FilmiGeek

Someday


– Small Small dash

Someday


dash dash दुनिया तेरे लिये

Someday


– तुम गले dash dash, बस मुझे dash dash

Someday


– Monday dash

Someday


– Rest in the Himalayas

Of course Darling, but not until 90 :-)