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format do I share my work background with you?
Should I put out my filmography here? With links to amateur films that I have made. The ambitious ones that I dream of often. But don’t work on. For fear of failure.
Do I tell you what software products I have built? Companies and teams that I have been a part of. Technologies that I have learned over the years.
Or should I upload the
Sorry yaar. I wouldn’t be able to do any of these.
I might at other online places. This diary though, is a more reflective, a more thinking aloud kind of place that I have.
So here goes a little background of my work background —
Almost Killed Myself
Mysteries of life are infinite and unfathomable. Not everything in your life will be full of joy. You will experience great loss and hurt in your journey.
There came a time I wanted to end it all. The journey itself. And it wasn’t the first time. I had first thought about it as a kid. Then much later in 2011. Then again in 2012.
But this time, in 2014, the want to escape from life was stronger than anything I had ever experienced.
Stronger than first love.
Stronger than first political awakening.
It was as if there was a storm inside me. Not a good storm. I did not know how to contain it. I could not. I tried surrendering. I tried fighting. I tried hiding. Nothing worked. I was screaming inside. Those screams were not made of words or sounds. Something inside me was desperately trying to find a way to be calm again. The more it tried, the more the screaming grew, the more the storm grew. I just could not contain it. Sometimes I abrubtly started crying, and felt better afterwards. But the calm wouldn’t last long. The storms always came back.
Then after many months a mysterious voice whispered inside me. I don’t know where it came from.
It was very gentle and light.
“Just live a simple and audacious life .. work for simple and audacious purposes .. I will take care of the rest”
There was something about that voice. Everything became calm again.
The storms inside me emptied.
It happened in a moment, but it did not feel sudden.
I do not know how to describe that calm.
It felt as real as sleep.
As reassuring and inviting as the Himalayas.
In that moment I knew, that I would not quit on life, not until I am 90, and that I would live a simple and audacious life, and work for simple and audacious purposes.
The details of all this took shape later.
List Of Work
Well Executed (1)
Flirting With The Wrong Man
Work From Home
Experimental version done for now, will do it for real in future
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Finished shooting in Kenya, editing to be done next.
राम चंद्र बेचारे सीता मैया से हारेे
Learning About America
New Money Teacher
China. India. America.
Ayyeki and Mr Dronn
Can you buy love for 14 cents?
Focus Now (2)
Mass gov software
Bitcoin Learning Board Game
Not Bad (4)
Innoraft team building
Aam Aadmi plunge
Haven’t Started (21)
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After I Am 90 (1)
Rest in the Himalayas